Speaking of Faith

If you all have time, you should check out this week's episode of Speaking of Faith with Krista Tippit. IT is a great NPR program that has some great shows about Religion and Culture. This weeks highlights two of my favorite authors ever: Flannery O'Conner and Thomas Merton.

I can only hope that others find the amzing experience in O'Conner and Merton that I have.

I've always wanted to be smart

Now i can, because i have attended MIT! Horray! That will go on the Resume!
Go to the MIT Site and you too can become a geek for fun.

Rough Week

SO i just got off a really rough week, and it confirmed that i am really confused. Not only did I have a hellish week of guardians and parents wreaking all kinds of havoc, the GRE prep made me feel really dumb with a 46% on the practice exam and then my boss brings up something from 3 months ago as an issue... and has nothing current to critique me on....
Yeah it was a pretty bad week. ANd i really feel at the same level that i was at when i live in Washington a few years back when i should have gone on prozac, but to make it all the more sad, I still can't figure out why my boss would bring up something from such a long time ago.
So here are my thoughts:
1. She's a bit slow on the uptake (but we have had supervison within the last 3 months so i don't know why it wasn't brought up then.)
2. It is tough to be a supervisor when there isn't too much going on with teh supervisee and thus you have to find something.
3. Supernatural forces are out to ruin my week and make me feel like shit with nothing to do to correct said issue (this really isn't sarcastic because this is really what i think is up.)
4. God knows, and is pushing me to make a change in my career and life.

Oh yeah, I am thinking of going to do a PH.D in I/O psychology.

Also, if you read this Andy, I have your wedding present. Chad didn't make the certificate he said he would. So i finally have a card for you.

Amazing pt. 2 (but not in a good way)

So i got some interesting comments, e-mails and phone calls about the Keith Oberman thing... Just to clarify, I don't believe everything he said, but I still find it amazing none the less because there is a level of emotion that was not censured in the commentary, and as a therapist, I love this. I find the honnesty of emotion as one of the most beautiful things in the world. Also, my brother told me about this video today. It is a home video of the attacks taken from an apartment about 500 yards north from the towers. It is really hard to watch, but I hope to show it to my kids one day so that they may understand some of the confusion and feelings i had on 9/11... Don't watch this if you don't want to relive one of the most horrific, isolating and confusing days of our lives. But I think this is amazing and profound none the less.

amazing

Sureal and Abusurd

Hmm... so one of my favorite books of all time is the stranger by Albert (pronounced "AL-Bear") Camus (pronounced Cam-moo)... it is about a guy who for some reason or another stabs an algerian on a beach, and then goes to prison. Yup, that is the best synopsis i could come up with, but it is about the absurdity of life and the situations one finds oneself in.
So here is my aburdity for the last few days. On Monday (when i typically don't work) I talked with a client who i believe has the devil inside (and not in a pop-culture 80's music sort of way). It was uber-creepy... I finished my morning with this guy, and then i went to a wedding rehersal.
Absurd in the dichotomy between the two... I don't really know how to explain how this kinda messes me up in an emotional way, but the rehersal was nice, and I got to spend some good quality time with my best friend.
Then on tuesday, i had to explain to the mother of the uber-evil guy that he is not progressing and really I don't find the need to call her every week to tell her that her son is evil... ( yeah it sounds cold, and i don't know how i would handle having an evil son, but I don't think i would yell at his therapist... but then again I am biased because I wouldn't yell at me.) So after that, i got to go to my best friend's wedding.
I was the best man. It was fun. I enjoyed it a great deal, and I hadn't seen him so happy. Also, the cool thing was that i got to meet a friend from High School's husband who was one of the coolest people ever... really how often do you find a stranger who finds the humor and irony to dance a slow dance with a stranger who used to go to high school with your wife... Yeah awkward i know, but way cool.

I also sang "Like a Virgin" by madonna... yeah, and I was completly sober... and it was a mormon/lutheran wedding.... again... awkward.

So today was kinda the let down to 5 days of events, and I am a bit depressed, but hey that's ok. I am starting to get used to it. Like a nice blanket that is mildly comforting, at least i know what to expect.. oh yeah, and tommorow i get to meet with crazy mom in person. I am so excited.

Also, one of my friend (i used to think good friends) hasn't called or e-mailed me back in like a month... I am a bit paranoid, but that also makes me wicked sad... I hope i haven't offended someone.

However, on a positive note, her is a picture of a fly with glasses... and yes its real. They are the smallest glasses in the world.

I am a nerd

The only two words that have no rhyming partner are Orange and Silver... They do have semi-rhyming partners though... or at least according to askoxford.com

Books I bought

Yeah, this is a lazy post. I have spent alot of time alone lately, and to deal with my adjustment problems i bought books. Horay for the best kind of self medication.


So here is what i bought and am excited about:
JPod by Douglas Coupland - my favorite post-modern author's new book about 20 somethings in Vancouver, Canada where I sometime wish i was.

A book about the art of Thomas Merton- nothing better than a monk who is ecumenical and is great with art.

The Gnostic Bible- hooray for non-cannonical jewish, christian, and islamic books found in the nag hamadi library.

The Black Dahlia - yeah i sometime cave and buy some pulp novels ever once and a while.


Well I am off to hang out by myself again and read.

Agitationn

So i have the hicupps now... that reallly is annoying.


The good thing is that my roommate has witnessed my dog dreaming and barking in his sleep.


So i think I have realized that my role in life is to be an element of change and encouraging thought. I went to a planing meeting for a local group of young professionals and made myself the odd man out... i wish wasn't so challenging.


I wish i could find people that love the sharpening of belief, and people that want to confront the social justice issues of being a world class Christian.

The Descent

So i must say how amazing the movie "The Descent" was... Really it is as good as snakes on a plane...

So one of my favorites ever is Psycho... It is the most amazing thriller ever... So is Aliens... ALso really good... The Descent is right up there.... I would have never expected it...


Also, if you get a chance, watch "The trouble with Harry" It is hilarious and one of the greatest black comedies ever.... I hope someday we will have another hitchcok in film.

Also, Happy Birthday Bethany!!!

Voyerism

So i have a bit of an addiction... Really I think that is why i am a therapist and like the people that are out there... I love the vast experience and the moments when someone is really open and honnest and lets others into that world. Really most people just see his or her own world and censored versions of other people's lives... that is why i am addicted to these sites...

http://mysecret.tv/index.php://

and

http://www.postsecret.blogspot.com/

Finally A New Post

So i have been bad and haven't actually written a blog in a while. So i guess this will sufice.


So last night, I saw one of the greatest horror movies ever. Let me start first by saying that often i don't find horror movies scary. The worst I have seen was High Tension... It was supposed to be all crazy because it was french and gory. But it alas it was really bad, and not scary.

So last night I saw this British film; The Descent. It was freakin' great! Almost as good as snakes on a plane! It was the creepiest and most clasterphobic movie i have ever seen.

It was apparently made before the move "The Cave" with Jin from Lost, but it was pretty much the same movie except scary. I as all about it.
The Descent was like Alien which still scares me. I know i will never be in a cave with crazy psychopathic creatures, just like i know i won;t be in space with psychopatic aliens... But it was still way crazy and creepy.

Bethany! I tell you! You should go see this.... It is up there for one of the most scary movies i have ever seen.

Also, If lyndsey or john read this, get me the UK DVD if you can. Apparently, it has a great ending that was changed for the US.

HAve a great night all my friends. And Happy Birthday Bethany!! I miss you oh so!